I knew that I wouldn't be able to write a post
every. single. day.
for the entire month...
It was inevitable that I would miss a day & have to play catch up or skip it altogether.
I figured when that happened that I would be super busy running errands,
that the kids would be a little bit more of a handful that day,
that I would be sick or exhausted,
or that I wouldn't have anything to blog about.
But the reason for me not blogging yesterday
was because of something that I didn't see coming.
Something we were completely unprepared for.
Something that was out of our hands.
Hubby's mom (Gram) has been in the hospital all week for severe abdominal pain.
They still don't know what the cause is,
& they can't exactly do any tests right now...
Her medical history is quite complicated & I am not going to try to explain it.
Long story short,
her heart stopped yesterday.
It was stopped for approximately 15 minutes...
It is a complete blessing that Hubby was on the phone with her when it happened
because if he hadn't called the nurse's station immediately after,
they may not have found out until it was far too late.
She's stable but sedated,
& they're using a ventilator to help her breathe.
We're really hoping that she'll pull through this
but we know that there's a possibility she won't.
There are so many thoughts that have been racing through my head:
Is she going to make it?
Have I been a good enough daughter-in-law?
Have I been kind enough?
What would I have done differently if I had known that her heart was going to stop yesterday?
How do we tell the kids if for some reason she doesn't make it?
If she pulls through, how much more time will we actually have with her?
What will we choose to do with the time we still have with her?
among many other questions...
We're trying to stay positive
& have faith that whatever happens is all part of the Lord's plan,
although it's not always easy.
I think far too often we take the gift of life for granted.
We get caught up in our day-to-day lives,
in our work,
in our social media,
in so many unimportant things,
that we forget to take a step back to focus on what's important.
We forget to focus on each other.
We forget to focus on our families & loved ones.
We forget to serve & spend time with them.
We fail to realize that each day could be our last day with them.
We are quick to forget how fragile life really is.
Spend a little extra time with those you love today,
so that you can live without regret tomorrow.
We're grateful that Hubby was on the phone with her when it happened.
We're grateful that the medical staff was able to stabilize her.
We're grateful for all of the thoughts & prayers that are being sent our way,
& for the many people that are reaching out to help in whatever ways that they can.
We're grateful for the knowledge that there is life after death,
& that families can be together forever.
No matter what happens...
we will make the most of what time we do have left
& we'll find comfort in knowing that we will get to see her again someday.
No matter what happens...
know that we love you Gram!
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